I didn't think i would be writing something right now but suddenly i feel frustrated and irritated, irritated with my work at the company where i am doing my internship. The Head out here assured us that he would be giving us real time work which would boost our careers. But what the heck, we have been doing the same shitty work for the past one month, with no exposure what so ever to the so called corporate ethics and work. For the past one month we are being literally run like machines and the rest of the people out here are not even complaining about it. I mean we are all going through the same situation, but am i the only one feeling this frustration??
I don't want to work here anymore. the work is horrible, the office is not at all like an office. And guess what today we even saw a salesman trying to sell To

GirlFriend!!

Guys I was unable to update and share about the new developments with the beautiful girl that i met. She is my life now. But some days back things were really fucked up between the two of us. The reason was pretty lame.
If I am asked a question "Which would be the One thing which u hate the most?"
My answer would be "Waiting". And let me explain to you why??

Waiting is not at all my thing and I seriously cannot wait for someone to arrive even if he/ she is very close to me. I don't know why this is the case but it is this way in my case. She is damn understanding, beautiful, intelligent and caring but she makes me mad in this part.
I know its pretty lame of a reason but i am not at all used to waiting. So, this is where the problem started and things went out of control, at least for while and i was hurt as hell when she said "Did we go into the relationship early??" I wanted to cry when she said that.

I could not even give her a proper clarification as I am fucking bad at it too. She wasn't talking to me, I could not take it anymore. A very good friend of hers kept on asking me what was the problem between us and I had nothing to tell to her. What was I to say??? Had no words.....Did not even know how to start talking to her again.

She was mad at me the whole day and I waited for the chance to start the conversation. But she is stubborn at times and she was not listening to me and not even answering to what I asked her. I guess I took the issue forward for too long and this made me regret later on. When in the evening time I made all the effort possible to get her to talk to me, she cried. I also wanted to cry for my carelessness. I had made such a lovely person cry and I regretted even more.

She started talking to me again but was not responding properly. I could not take her half-heartened replies and wanted to say to her that I cannot take it anymore and asked her to talk to me properly. I dropped her to her hostel and I felt like crying for being such an ass and hurting my 'shonu' baby this bad. We talked during the night time and that's when things got under control again and she told me to talk back to her instantly whenever she would be angry. And I told her about the one thing that I hate...."waiting".

She told me that she would take of it from the next time but you know girls rite......keeping their hubbies waiting is their favorite pass time....lol!!!

I guess i have to adapt as I know now 'she is my responsibility'!!!

Sleep!!

Sleep is a problem for me from the time i have come to Bangalore. So yesterday i mentioned this in front of my friends and i told her that i would be visiting the doctor the same day for this problem of mine.I have visited a homeopathic doctor earlier as well with the same problem as a reference point. He would give me some tiny sweet medicines which according to would make me relax. But these medicines had very little impact on me.

So, this friend told me not to go to the doctor and she asked me to get a proper head massage with oil. She said it would help me and all the heat in the heat would evaporate....lol. So, i took her advice, straight after dinner i asked Abey to apply Navratna oil on my head and do some massage.
Guess what guys, this thing actually worked and i was able to sleep well the previous night. Thanks to Madhavi.
One more thing that i would e doing from now on - i'll continue with my Yoga sessions in the morning....this actually helps guys...try it!!

1st day at internship!!

Its the first day of my internship and i am feeling bored as hell. We have joined Orangetrips as 'online marketing analyst'. Don't know what that means but we will get some work from Monday hopefully. Its has been a full day of boredom and from the time we reached here i have been wanting to go out and talk to my baby.......
OK there is something which i should be writing now. I met a girl and she is awesome. I was literally very sad before i met her. Thoughts of my previous girl haunted me and this in some way made me unstable at mind. Since the time she has come in my life i have been happy and she has in a way helped me in forgetting that girl.


She is very beautiful and most of all very understanding and caring at heart and i love her for that. We joke around all the time and what i can do with her that i cannot do with anyone else is; i can share anything with her. She appreciates what i do and even likes what i don't like in myself. She is a gem of a girl and sometimes i think 'why didn't i meet her before?'  

beauty of the past!!

The weather at this particular instant in Bangalore is amazing and its actually a little romantic. Couples will definitely be in a position to feel it more than I.Now with this weather by my side a lot of nice memories are flooding towards me.
It was during the Durga Puja in Agartala during my b-tech days.I was beginning to have my first serious relationship and the girl was really beautiful and understanding unlike the girls that you find nowadays.It was not for the first time that i was dating but it was a special feeling.It was our first Puja vacations for our relationship and we made a plan to visit the city as it would be beautifully decorated with all the classic touch that bengalis give to make their Durga Puja a special one.
She was looking beautiful that day and what took me back was the simplicity in her dressing. She was wearing a light blue patiala suit which looked awesome on her. For me it was like, I could keep on seeing her and still i would never be bored.We reached the city in the evening time because evenings display the Puja to their finest beauty.We visited various pujas and walked holding hands through out the evening. I was having an amazing feeling holding her hand and i was on top of the world.The best part about her is that she cares a lot and I sometimes used to think how could somebody care so much for a person whom she has just met.But i guess love is unconditional and care is part and parcel of it.I still miss those amazing days which i spent with her. I wish those days come back to me and i would try to make them more beautiful or at least i could see her again then!!!

hell of a day-literally!!

Its a crazy world out here and who will stop talking to you and due to what reason is completely out of your understanding sometimes. The best of your friends stop talking to you with no reason what so ever. So, I have also decided to keep mum, pretend that i don't give a damn. We formed a group in the new college we came into and we felt everything was going good with all the good friends sharing what ever matters they are going through. I was all wrong in getting this and now I know you cannot control how others should be around you. Our whole group has broken apart and the reason behind this is something which is known to none. The people  whom we thought were simple and kiddish turned out to be the most clever. Nobody shows their real self and people can get fake at the utmost extent.
I don't get one thing is that with all the problem already at our disposal how do people bring new ones and make everything a mess? I don't like this place anymore.....why is everybody pretending to be a person they can never be with whatever efforts they make??

bangalore

I have already written a lot about me still being crazy for the girl of my dreams who has left me.....now I would want to digress a little from all this sentimental stuff move to a topic which is cheerful and which makes me happy. As I said earlier that I am pursuing MBA from Bangalore. I have been to the Garden city for the first time and I find the weather of Bangalore pretty interesting and I feel the people here are enthusiastic and energetic as well.I came to this city about 9 months back and from the day I reached this place I have been facing this crazy habit of not sleeping well.What I mean to say by that is I don't get sleep at night.Instead in my subconscious state of sleep I have been getting these nightmares which I can not even recall.They have been constantly disturbing me and due to this my health is getting affected as well.
It is pretty crazy to imagine a person not getting sleep for so long n still being normal....but i have been coping pretty well, i guess.....